Disclaimer

I started writing  Pennsylvania Echoes  because I wanted to improve my grammar.  I chose meditation, mindfulness and how they apply to my daily life, as the blog’s subject matter.  Writing about Mental Health Management has received the most appreciation.
My world- view will not cure mental disorder. but I cannot separate my world view entirely from management or my great concerns for Mental Health.  So I must present my thoughts, and tips on “Mental Wellness” in my own way and from my own experience–  if I am to be honest.
Any information you find is meaningful is presented as is.  There is no Warranty. Too bad I can’t cure my bad grammar.
Enjoy.
–Chris
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Symphony of Rain

sitting and connecting with rain (zazen )

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So busy doing other things, some times I forget the beauty of therain. Its not until I “sit” do I remember. I already was sitting — on the front porch playing chess against my android device on an otherwise “dark and stormy night”. Tired of that I just “sat” in theZen definition:
Sitting, on the same porch on bench: posture square, straight… confident through the shoulders but relaxed; Legs straight with feet flat on the ground. I should point out that I was covered in bug repellent, so I felt safe from the army of mosquitoes of the damp night.

Soon the sound of the rain filled my awareness. The sound of droplets against asphalt roof and asphalt road with the grass, bushes and flower beds in between: quite a symphony.
Then I could fill the touch of the cool damp breeze. My thoughts meandered to other…

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Pathway Photos

pathless path – I think too much.

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duck-on-the-water.jpg

A handful of photos of Paths or Pathways, or as above.. some ducks on their pathway. Click on a thumbnail to start the gallery view:



Walking the parks, riversides, or woods… I occasionally catch myself feeling a little ridiculous. Walking, or sitting on a bench or a rock: alone or with others: “being in the moment” – ahh..that pathless path…. I spoil it by reaching for a camera. Sometimes I even make sure to set the correct digital setting to correctly filter and capture the static moment. And then I feel a little ridiculous.

I think too much.

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Value & Meaning building

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definitions-downloads
#: esteem – respect – value – meaning

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Ultimately, man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but rather he must recognize that it is he who is asked.

__Viktor Emil Frankl

 
 
What is  “Meaning” ?
To me:  A personal  or subjective  experience in definition. for something to  be “Meaningful”  it must hold Value and– in my relationship with this something or someone, concept, goal, object, human or life-fom, I must “esteem” it to be more value in comparison to other somethings in a context, landscape or gestalt.
 
 

Esteem

respect for or a high opinion of someone

Respect

 Admiration for someone or something that you believe has good ideas or qualities.

Value

the importance or worth of something for someone
how useful or important something is

dictionary.cambridge.org
 
 

Meaning.

  • meaningful… description of information, that is:
    • that is formed out of background of discord
    • that is…

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subway flash


The Pawnbroker scene with Rod Steiger – in which he replies a survivor of the Nazi holocaust in the mid 1900s.
The Pawnbroker, living in New York, disconnected from his present social going-ons and disinterested in faith and man.
Later in the movie he is shocked into the social realities around him.
here flash backs of horrible experiences.

symptoms of trauma

  • angry outburst at inconvenient times, including when relax
  • Trouble remembering key features of traumatic event
  • Distorted feelings like guilt or blame
  • Flashbacks—reliving the trauma over and over, including physical symptoms like a racing heart or sweating
  • Bad dreams
  • Frightening thoughts
  • Loss of interest in enjoyable activities

PTSD – post traumatic stress disorder

“disorder” in standard practice of medicine is a diagnosis.
diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder can ONLY be given by a professional.
this fact is true because the purpose of diagnosis is to specify treatment and management of disorder, (which are spotted tenants of a criteria layed out by medical standards )

with that aside ones own research into Anxiety and Trauma could be very beneficial for one lifes therapies.

taking on episodes

Our past experiences, ride shotgun with our present doings. a relaxed body, at any given moment and anxiety or “flashbacks” can rise to the front of our perception.
Freud speculated that this was the body defending its self.
This is as if to say, hey body you survived an event before, lets keep it as a guard.
What does this mean?
Sometimes its useful to just welcome the flash, the anxiety episode.
then catch before “it” before it starts up again by reminding self/body “IM SAFE”.

This is a helpful tool because it requires nothing, not even privacy.

1. start with a good sized inhale.
2. Exhale and count out “ 5..4..3..2..1..0″
Count whispering while exhaling
3. Inhale through the nose
4. Exhale “5..4..3..2..1..0″ Just as number 2.
5. continue to step 3 and 4 :
I slow down my counting with each exhale

5…4…3….2….1…0
5…..4…..3……2…..1……0 slower and slower each exhale.

6. I do this for about 3 to 5 minutes or so
7. (optional) inhale, then exhale and repeating the thought: “I’m Safe” . – helpful if anxious.

– taken from the full post: Breathing and Counting Exercise.

The greatest weapon against stress is our ability to choose one thought over another. –William James

seeking professional management & treatment

under the present healthcare system, if one is persistently bothered by trauma and anxiety system, the SECOND step is to talk with ones General Practitioner.
FIRST keep a list or a log of of events and episodes.
this is a habit one should always consider when a doctors visit is scheduled.
write down when, what you were doing, and how the event made you physically feel.
If you suspect post-trauma ask General practitioner for the next step,

There is nothing shameful about anxiety and trauma-symptoms. they are part of the bodys functioning, like eating, pooping and dreaming, vomiting.
but one doesnt want persistent anxiety and flashes to rule his life.

this link has examples of charts before visiting a doctor:https://echopen.wordpress.com/charts/
one can download them or just make their own on paper.

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Broken Continuum

Aphex and Servant Lacan reblogged – sn*

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On Obsession and the Rat Man Case – Jacques Lacan

Broken Continuum

From reading Perls and practising self therapy, I infer:
that the Ratman  is the underdog of a broken self  gestalt continuum [a natural top dog/ underdog integration]; the obsession on serving imaginary Hero or Authority ,is that sense authority has lost of his “whole-self”.
His severe lack of self esteem is projected or transposed, by ritual to esteeming an imaginary other.

As I interpret and infer, this routine, if intruding to his life: is an impeding disturbance at contact boundary
What the Ratman is projecting is of a wounded and buried Esteem, that serves in place of  Top dog or Authority over his day to day polarity and choices. this ritual may manifest its self at times as obsessive.

Apex and Servant

An alarming personal Dynamic is being promoted around the world…

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Decembering Philadelphia 1

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Photography of Centre City (Down-town)during two evening trips..
Outdoor photography is a relatively cheap hobby,
A cheap and simple digital camera ($50 to $150 dollars) and a laptop computer.
Exercise, fresh air, and bumping into other pedestrians worth it..

Hope you enjoy my photos as much as I enjoyed taking them!

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Intersubjectivity

I : thou

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I {subject} observe  a  chair {an object}.

I see a brown wooden that looks aesthetically pleasing and comfortable. I see an object labeled “chair” in my language and it is used for sitting.

You also observed the chair. You and I agree that an object in our realities is a chair. We agree that its purpose is for sitting on;
We may also agree that the chair is brown, without knowing if my experience of “brown” looks like exactly  like your experience of “brown”.
You may not agree that the chair is aesthetically pleasing, however.

What We(you and I) objectively say is true about the this object (the chair), is an agreement of our subjective observations.

A Spider comes along and is now crawling on the chair. He may not observe a “chair” at all from his point of view. In the spiders reality…

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